Uncertainty/Good Place??

For the first time in a long time, I'm uncertain... and it's somewhat of a good thing.

I've been writing. A lot more than usual. Working on something that may one day have the potential to 'shake up the world' like Ali did. I spent basically fall 2008 and spring 2009 working on a short story called "fade2Black." At least, it was intended to be a short story. Then it grew... and it became an online soap opera of a sort. It went 22 episodes deep, and apparently it garnered a huge following. I was shocked because really, it was the first time when I was confident in my own work. Don't get me wrong: I know I'm a good writer. I know I'm a decent editor (of personal statements, papers, the like). But there is something about affirmation from others that I take a lot from. Perhaps I rely on it too much. In any case, fade2Black had such a huge following. It got deep. I could name off the top of the dome maybe 20 people who followed faithfully... and I found out AFTER the fact that there were a bunch of people reading along who followed but didn't leave comments (hit-and-runners. damn 'em! lol).

So I'm trying it again with a new story and a somewhat new concept. With any luck, this new story might allow for publication. We'll see... we shalt see.

December or May '10 graduation is staring me in the face. I have no time or patience or room for games or errors anymore. I really need to hustle... who knew I'd be the person on the 5.5 year plan? Certainly not me... but God has a reason for everything...

Lastly... I'm trying to come to terms with the chicks in my life. Specifically, there is one in particular who I'm attempting to talk to now. It's still pretty simple. I liked her before, but I like her a bit more now because I'm starting to feel like we connect. But she def just broke it off with her boyfriend, and if I learned nothing else from last time with the Nigerian Unicorn... yeah. We'll see. But I am admittedly becoming smitten with new chick, if for no other reason than that she actually can go toe-to-toe with my sarcasm... not jumping, not jinxing, not building houses. We'll see.

Note: I need to pray more. I think if I did that, the uncertainty wouldn't be so much of an issue. So working on that, too. But I'm in a good place. Not a GREAT place. Not necessarily a HAPPY place... but a good place. For a change.